Oh, no! Here it is – Wednesday! I was supposed to have my post done by Tuesday. I haven’t missed a single deadline since I started writing my blog. Even with the passing of my brother and a major surgery, I didn’t miss a beat. So what in heavens name happened that I did not have my weekly writing done on time??? I forgot!
Yes, it was that simple. I thought about it over the weekend but I wasn’t inspired. I thought about it on Monday evening but couldn’t think of a thing. But that was okay because I always come through by Tuesday. That wouldn’t be a problem. But then I met friends for dinner and as I was leaving the restaurant, I ran into another person with whom I hadn’t had a chance to have a conversation in a long time so I lingered. Then I had to stop at the store on the way home and pick up a couple of things. My cell phone was acting up so that I couldn’t make a call (darn that Mercury when it goes retrograde). And as it was getting late, I had to hurry home and get a shower so that I could spend a little time with Kirk before heading to bed. I knew that I had to get up early in the morning to get to work because I was leaving early for an appointment so I had to get certain things organized the night before.
So here I am, having arrived home a little earlier than usual and all of a sudden it hits me. I missed a deadline. Me! I missed a deadline. I never miss a deadline! How did this happen? I pride myself on finishing everything on time, if not ahead of time. I always arrive early for appointments so I never keep anyone waiting. And I always write my blog on time. How embarrassing! I missed a deadline.
And then I stopped myself and said, “So what!” I didn’t hurt anyone. I am sure that no one was signing on to view my latest writings and sitting there waiting for them to pop up. So why was I so bothered that my post was not ready on Tuesday? I am not sure but I do know that it is not because I am a perfectionist. It seems more like I don’t want to disappoint others because that would mean that I disappointed myself. And then a better perspective popped up.
I could take this whole thing too seriously and schedule every Tuesday to allow for writing at a particular time if I have not already completed my blog. That way I would never be late. But I would miss out on that special get together with some friends. I would not have a few extra minutes to spend with someone who I really like. I wouldn’t have a chance to chat with Kirk before heading to bed to share our thoughts on the day’s happenings. And most importantly, I would have to choose to write about life rather than choosing to live life. For me, that is not an option worth considering. I just hope that I never make a choice to not live life to its fullest. To me, there is absolutely nothing that is more important. So if I miss a deadline again in the future, just know that I am doing something special with someone special and that is the way I live my life.